I've been working on enjoying my life more lately. Enjoying the good and the bad, the positive feelings and the negative.
I got really good at zapping the fun out of things, thinking seriousness was necessary to not only get the job done, but also to do it well.
I was always good at hustling.
Not the kind of hustling where you swindle people out of money. The kind where your basketball coach would say something like "Great hustle Poelman!"
I started thinking that to do a good job, you had to really bring that intense energy. Not just 100% but 110%, right?
But it turns out you can over-hustle.
I sometimes find myself in such a hurry to get the job done that I don't take the time to stop and plan out how to get the job done well. I don't take the time to enjoy the process.
"There's no time for that. I just need to get it done." So I dive in.
I've heard this referred to as Hustle Porn. That term makes me laugh.
I get in such a hurry for the end result...
Lots of guys want to stop looking at porn to become more worthy or lovable.
Well, guess what, you can't. You are 100% lovable just the way you are.
So if your reason for going porn free is to be more worthy, it won't work.
Many guys think they'll be happier by going porn free.
Guess what, it doesn't quite work that way.
Your emotional experience is 50/50 (50% positive and 50% negative) with porn and 50/50 without porn.
This doesn't have to be a bad thing. It's just important to know up front.
If you've white-knuckled your way to weeks or months of sobriety without doing anything to adjust your mindset, you may have spiraled back in to porn because you're thinking:
"What's the use! It doesn't make me feel any better to go without porn."
My life and my clients' lives have much more happiness in them without porn, but it's not because of the lack of porn. It is because of the...
If you want a change, you need to be willing to fail.
All failing really means is that something didn't go as we expected it to go.
Fear of failure is likely to come up when we:
When fear of failure comes up, we get to decide whether we are going to:
Continue to go for what we really want.
just try to keep coasting.
In short, if you want to succeed, you need to fail, a lot.
Fear of failure can make coasting seem very appealing. We naturally think the uncomfortable feelings come from the goal itself.
So we think that moving away from the goal gets rid of those feelings.
Coasting will still be 50% comfortable and 50% uncomfortable. It will be 50/50 before, after, and on the way to reaching your goal.
The discomfort from coasting, in my opinion, is worse than the discomfort from intentional growth.
People who want to want to stop (not a typo) looking at porn are often unsure about what life will be like without it.
What if life without porn is way worse?
What if I can't handle the stresses of life without it?
What if it ends up being a bunch of effort, money, and discomfort for something worse than what I have now?
What if I try and fail? I'll look stupid.
What if it's a waste of time?
Our brains are designed to resist change. And our brains will find and even create evidence that something bad will happen if you make that change.
You have practiced thinking that you "need" porn so many times that it has become a belief.
When your brain thinks/believes something, it finds evidence to support it. Even if that thought is not true/rational/helpful.
What if the idea that you "need" porn is inaccurate?
What if it is just an irrational thought you bought in to one day?
What if you don't "need" porn at all? And never have "needed" it?
Is there a chance...
Topic: How to start managing your mind and stop looking at porn
Duration: 1 hour
First minute: set up
0'55: welcome and intro
4'26: a story and teaching some concepts
20'25: Q&A and coaching participants
56'59: closing message, inspiring question
While going through the process of eliminating porn from my life. I created a 2-minute Brain-Changer for myself to review each day and when having urges, if needed.
Basically it consisted of a summary of all the Thought Work I had done (through self coaching and being coached). A summary of my most important thought work practice and insights into my own brain.
A powerful tool!
I remember having an urge at one point and thinking about reading over my brain changer. But part of me didn't want to.
I thought to myself, "I don't want to read that, because then I won't want to look at porn right now."
I noticed this thinking and laughed to myself. It makes me laugh to look back at it now.
I realized that I knew it worked in this backward sort of way.
The point is: Thought Work, the Model, and coaching work.
You may be saying, "Well then, Danny, give me your 2-minute Brain Changer" so I can use it to stop looking at porn.
My 2-minute Brain Changer wouldn't help...
Indecision leads to inaction.
While we think we are avoiding making a decision, we are actually deciding not to decide which is a decision in and of itself.
If you think you are avoiding making a decision, you are wrong. What you are doing is deciding not to decide.
Deciding is one of the most powerful things we do. It is where all of our power actually starts.
To change requires power.
To create something new requires power.
“Most failures are one-time costs. Most regrets are recurring costs. The pain of inaction stings longer than the pain of incorrect action.” -James Clear
“Choosing what to do is a lot more powerful than studying what to do.” -Brooke Castillo
Will power is a limited resource in your brain.
Leaving a decision undecided actually drains your will power.
Going back and forth and renegotiating with yourself drains willpower.
Unfinished/unplanned tasks also drain will power.
I thought I had to prove myself.
If I go (X amount of time) without porn, then I'll know I can do it.
What I wanted was to feel confident and capable.
Most things we do are because of how we think it will make us feel.
I'm going to prove that I can do it!
But hiding in this thought is the idea that maybe I'm not sure I can do it yet.
The brain is an evidence-finding machine. So what kind of fuel am I going to put in it?
Last year, we put unleaded gas in our diesel European rental car. The car didn't make it further than a block or two before shutting down.
It matters even more what kind of gas you put in your brain.
The gas is your thoughts.
Beliefs are just thoughts we repeat over and over.
If I give my brain the idea: maybe I can't do it. Even if it's packaged so nicely in a thought like I'm going to prove that I can do it! My brain will look for evidence that maybe I can't...